Cold Capping is hard but losing your hair is harder

Day 17 after my first treatment (3 days after second treatment) my hair started shedding. Each day it continued to shed. It was extremely disheartening. I was doing all the right things – washing my hair once a week, letting it air dry which wasn’t easy with my wavy hair and cowlicks, using paraben and sulfate free shampoo and conditioner, brushed it twice a day with the brush provided by Paxman, etc. I washed my hair on Day 23. I brushed it well before I washed it, and lots of hair came out. I brushed it again while it was wet and I didn’t think it was going to stop coming out. As my hair started drying I realized that I had a large balding spot on my crown. What?? I cried and cried. This is one of the most difficult parts of this journey. My husband held me while I cried. I know he didn’t know what to say but all I really needed was to be held. I called my hairdresser who is also a good friend of mine to talk it through. I know nothing about Toppers, Toppik hair fibers, or wigs. I know I should keep some length to continue to cold cap but not sure how to navigate the day to day. I ordered a topper on Amazon and it will be here in a few days. So I put a hat on and we went for a drive on that beautiful spring day. With the hat on you can’t tell anything is different with my hair. It was nice to be able to forget about my hair and cancer for a couple of hours.